What To Do When You're Not Feeling Like Yourself
2 months ago I was walking down 7th avenue in the rain with my momma after a soul cycle class. We were talking about when you just don't feel like yourself. I dont know if it's winter, the weather, or just the general blah's. For me, it's not like a full blown depression, but more like a subtle out of body experience, floating a little outside of myself. I dont feel fully present or engaged. I can't take deep breaths. Dont worry, my therapist knows and says I'm not (clinically) insane - just ungrounded.
But the frustrating part is that I was doing all my things!!! I was even doubling down on therapy. Writing every day. Working out. Acupuncture. Not traveling for once (which actually may have been the issue...). And still... absolutely not feeling like the best or sharpest version of myself. I wanted to try something brand new, join some sort of teacher training or sign on to a new project. Something to re-spark me. Something to keep me extra busy.
And then my therapist said, WAIT WAIT WAIT. Just sit with this for a second. Maybe it's the not-doing that's important here. Maybe you don't have to do anything. What if, for a few weeks, you just don't do anything about it? Do the opposite of getting busy?
She also had me place both feet on the ground where I usually have my legs crossed whenever I thought of it and do some breathing practices. One thing I did add in the mix, that really helped with breathing, was cupping from my acupuncturist. He said the muscles over my diaphragm were so tight so it literally was making it hard to take deep breaths. This helped tremendously. Not being able to breath or taking shallow breaths can feel like self-inducing a panic attack. (PS here are 5 things you can do for anxiety right now).
And then, guess what! A few weeks later, 2 wednesdays ago to be exact, things clicked again. A few things fell into place, I felt excited, and I could feel myself step right into the flow of things. I felt like ME again. I had the most fun weekend with my friends in Nashville. I even lost my ID (minorly important when traveling for a bit) and someone FOUND ME ON INSTAGRAM!! It's like when all the subways arrive perfectly synchronized. I wish i could bottle that feeling up of things being in a flow state -- but the truth is it is all an ebb & flow. So just know if you're in one of these funky moments, things will click again, i promise you (and I promise me). And the big lesson, which i'm still trying to incorporate: is maybe not doing, is as important as doing. Patience my friends!! *But if you feel like doing... here are some ideas!
On that note; an oldy but goodie Magic Minute with my bff Kaylee on being in a funk. What do you guys do when you're feeling out of it? PS: Spring starts tomorrow! Hallelujah! xx